One day I bought a newspaper that detailed the facts about Falun Gong and the persecution from a newspaper department in a general store. I completely forgot about the newspaper once I got home. A week later, the newspaper, together with a lot of things that were stacked on it fell from my desk. I had thought of throwing the newspaper away, but when I stood up I couldn’t move a step just as though I was fixed there. So I kept the newspaper and decided to read and see what sort of newspaper. I couldn’t believe my eyes when I was reading the newspaper. I always felt that the story of the persecution could have occurred in the past and that such a thing couldn’t be happening now. Slowly, I changed my mind. I went from a state of disbelief to feeling sympathetic with those suffering under the persecution coupled with a feeling of deep pain in my heart. Due to it being lat at night I decided to telephone the contact person from the paper first thing tomorrow.
I was feeling upset about the persecution of Falun Gong that is taking place in China. I thought that such a vicious and unprovoked attack proves that Falun Gong must be genuine. Otherwise what could be the reason for the persecution, stigmatisation and attacks. I knew that Falun Gong was what I had been looking forward to and looking for all my life. The next morning, I phoned the person who is in charge of the local practising site, yet unfortunately he was away on business. Two days later I received news that Falun Gong practitioners go to the local park and practise the exercises every Sunday. I couldn’t go to sleep the night before that Sunday. I felt so cold all over that I couldn’t close my eyes. I didn’t manage to fall asleep until 4 o’clock in the morning. I had a very clear dream that night where a black figure came to my home. When I saw him I firmly asked him to leave whilst pointing my finger to the door. He went to the door without listening to me or my husband who was holding the baby in his arms and standing next to the dark figure. The dark figure was looking at me surprisingly. I had a sense that he wanted to hurt my husband and child. With my eyes looking at him more impatiently, as he left the room he turned his head to look back at me. I ordered him to leave with my eyes. He turned away and went down stairs and I shut the door. Just then I woke up and I felt warm and peaceful. Perhaps it was a first test arranged for me. After that, I got everything ready and went to the practise site.
When I first had a go at the Falun Gong exercises I felt that my body was full of energy. I was so warm and comfortable, not only that but I also felt very light after practising. From that very moment, I realised that I really needed this and I wanted to learn Falun Gong. Two months later, the test I went through was not in a dream but it was my husband who tested me to see if I had confidence in practising Falun Gong. It was very late and I came home as usual from the practise site. We had a chat and unexpectedly, my husband said that Falun Gong was not good.
On hearing what he said I felt terrible. I had read many other books and experienced many things. I thought that Falun Gong was a ladder leading me to a bright future. How could I give it up just when I started practising? Whether I would give it up or continue practising made me feel very upset. At that very moment, I began doubting Falun Gong. My heart was painful as if it were being torn apart and darkness was surrounding me. I felt as though I was going to die and that there was no longer any reason for me to live on this earth. The moment that I thought of Falun Gong again, I felt the power and the rays of light from Falun Gong filling my every cell, I realised that the purpose of this life of mine is to cultivate in Falun Gong. I knew that I couldn’t not practise Falun Gong. With this thought I could feel a very strong energy running over my whole body; I was a part of the Fa and was really alive: Falun Gong is giving off rays of light, purifying every particle of mine. In a split second, I felt decidedly easy.
From then on, I have never doubted Falun Gong. The next morning my husband told me that he was not quite clear why he had doubts and at the same time, he also accepted Falun Gong and allowed me to practise freely.
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